Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Alive but alone

Today I feel alive but alone. I dwell on the past like I know I shouldn't. And it negatively affects how I see my future. I feel a kinship between so few people. And with those select few I feel and inconsolable distance. I am a single rock struggling against the current of the river that is my life. Today I fight for peace of mind. Today I fight for the things I want. I will defeat the negativity.

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Hourglass glued to the table

Elation pours from me like water from a faucet when I consider my own mortality. How amazing is it that my mistakes won't matter in a few years? My little indulgences don't seem so harmful when I think that one day I will not be here to regret them.

Friday, August 26, 2011

The Hottest Love Has the Coldest End.

Today I think about all the paths that have been laid out in front of me. I consider every road I watched as I flew through the sky on my wings of wax. I think of you and I cry. This is an odd sensation not because I am fixated on you, that is normal for me, but because I don't want to want you. Maybe I can't control my mind as well as I think I can. Maybe I am not the paragon of self control that I would like myself to be. Or maybe, just maybe, I am lonely.