I cannot deal with the man I used to be anymore. That man hurt people he loved. He pushed 3 of the people that he loved out of his life. Its hard for me to think I have much of a future, when I look back on the horrible things I have done. Whether there was a reason for it or not, I was wrong. I would literally give up everything I have to be able to take back the bad things I have done to you, I am sorry.