The guilt I feel right now is terrible. I discovered that I may have a form of PTSD, whats worse is that I may have caused this same thing in my son. Even if I wasn't a monster for being a victim, I victimized Brayden in the same way. He will love and grow up like me and it hurts more than anything has ever hurt me. This is a pain and burden I will carry with me forever, I am sorry.